If he truly loved you, he wouldn’t be keeping you as his mistress. And if you truly think he is the only guy that will love you this much then you need to get out more and meet new people. And work on your self-esteem while you are at it.
Affairs can be very damaging to everyone involved including you. Stop telling yourself that you’re different or he loves you. Deep down you know that’s a load of bullshit. Respect yourself enough to stop the affair because obviously he doesn’t respect you, his, wife or himself enough to do it. -Lisa P.